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Borderline.
How much of myself am I?
Under these lines I write, how much is true, how much is you?
It's become blurred, my dreams, my wrongs, my lies, my mind, my time, your time, your lines, my heart, my chemicals, your chemicals, pharmaceutical chemicals to control our chemicals, the air, I have no air, I can't breathe, what's going on?
You slip through my eyes when I cry, I slip through myself when you're in. So many apologies to pursue, how could anyone see me when it's you screaming with my voice?
How much of myself is me? How much of it is you?
Who would I be without you?
How can I live without you? How can I be with you?
When will I be without you?
Under these lines I write, how much is true, how much is you?
It's become blurred, my dreams, my wrongs, my lies, my mind, my time, your time, your lines, my heart, my chemicals, your chemicals, pharmaceutical chemicals to control our chemicals, the air, I have no air, I can't breathe, what's going on?
You slip through my eyes when I cry, I slip through myself when you're in. So many apologies to pursue, how could anyone see me when it's you screaming with my voice?
How much of myself is me? How much of it is you?
Who would I be without you?
How can I live without you? How can I be with you?
When will I be without you?
Published 28th Nov 2021
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28th Nov 2021 12:49pm
28th Nov 2021 3:53pm
(Ironically, you look exactly like a friend of mine. And she is lovely)
I'm thinking here that this piece is a self-observation of your internal conflicts. And perhaps you're at a crossroad of either-or with decisions.
Your followup should now be about the payoff of your decisions. Your reward, so to speak. I'm looking forward to it.
I'm thinking here that this piece is a self-observation of your internal conflicts. And perhaps you're at a crossroad of either-or with decisions.
Your followup should now be about the payoff of your decisions. Your reward, so to speak. I'm looking forward to it.
28th Nov 2021 3:56pm
(Ironically, you look exactly like a friend of mine. And she is lovely)
I'm thinking here that this piece is a self-observation of your internal conflicts. And perhaps you're at a crossroad of either-or with decisions.
Your followup should now be about the payoff of your decisions. Your reward, so to speak. I'm looking forward to it.
I'm thinking here that this piece is a self-observation of your internal conflicts. And perhaps you're at a crossroad of either-or with decisions.
Your followup should now be about the payoff of your decisions. Your reward, so to speak. I'm looking forward to it.
28th Nov 2021 10:15pm
With respect; might you wish to talk with a specialist? A social worker even?
My brother's girlfriend was recently diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder. I wrote this piece thinking about all the problems she has had in her life, all the times she acted so impulsively, all the times she treated me or other members of my family poorly with no apparent reason. I was looking back at everything and trying to realize how much of what she did, all the things that got everyone in the family upset to the point of shutting her out entirely, was actually this disorder talking. She would do really mean things and then apologize but how could any of us accept that apology when she acted so badly time after time. Now, after knowing about her personality disorder I'm trying to see her and her actions differently. Borderline personality disorder is a very serious issue that even though I had read about before, I haven't been around anyone who actually suffered from it. It's a whole new thing, I see her through completely different lens now and that's what I tried to convey here.
