The Other

I do not know if it was having to say good bye that brought about these feelings that I had. Or maybe me wanting to be loved by you…the urge of wanting to cling too that last glimpse of hope that you were really the one and my search was finally over, warmed my blood to the highest degree…right before feverish.

It was almost frighting,

I told myself that if this were truly the case that I would make sure that I made this work. That this kiss would last far beyond time and space. This kiss…we will feel even if we are reborn under different circumstances…there would not be any comparisons.

To the touch that you placed upon the stillness of my flesh, that sudden burst of fire that engulfs my soul sending me into an upward spiral towards only God knows, and I not question. Will forever be a bar another would have to surpass to take claim to what I have.

With every kiss there is an answer and every touch you blessed me with certainty, of that possibility of maybe….just maybe you really may be the one…

But what a fool I would be to believe that you of all beings can be the light in my sky. The protector the soother to my wants and needs. Because you and I both know that I cannot claim…someone who has already been claimed.

To justify my moment of weakness to be loved and groomed by someone’s other, I refuse to allow myself to be placed at the rear of someone else’s fantasies. To be called upon to fulfill a need and not be able to claim that ultimate prize. Would be stooping a little too low for these aging bones.

So I in return choose to kiss your lips one last time…I find myself gazing into your heart as I take back the key to my heart. Place my headphones over my ears and turn on some tunes to mute you out of my thoughts…and casually disappear off into the night.