Old Flames, New Games

 
 
I wonder if you’ve gotten some peace;
I wonder if you’re doing well?
I wonder if this time you finally believe whatever lie she wants you to sell?
I know I’m not blameless, I’ve done some fucked up things,
But at least I was honest with myself before there were any rings.  
You came back into my life, from ashes to a new, burning flame,  
You sucked me into you completely,  
And I’m left wondering if it was all a game.
Does she make your heart race, does she bring you to your knees?
Does she bite her lip when she thinks of you? Does she truly aim to please?
Does she get as wet as me, does she love your face when you cum?  
Maybe she’s just a warm body to be with you….that might be ok for some?
Does she give you something to believe in; does she make you wanna do all the things?  
Do you feel like you need to drop everything just to see her, no matter what chaos it brings?  
Is the chemistry so intoxicating, it’s almost too much to stand?
Are your thoughts of being inside her so exquisite that it feels like the whole universe’s plan?
You see, this felt bigger than me, so I dropped my guard and let myself fall,
That was so easy at first because you were always the first to call.
Things got too intense, so we slowed it down,  
We swore to keep one another in our lives, but I don’t see you anywhere around.
You do something to my mind and body that makes me feel out of control.
You ignited something that had been absent so long in my heart, and you set fire to my soul.  
My ego means nothing, I’ll tell you I love you out loud.  
I’ll even admit that you’ve torn my heart apart, does that make you proud?  
How could you mend me just to break me again, why heal me just to replace it with so much more pain?
I need to understand you, this is driving me insane.  
Breaking my little heart the first time was horrible enough, but to do it again is just too far.  
I simply cannot believe you would do this to me, is this really the man you are?  
Of all the people in the world who’s heart you could have broken, why did it need to be me?  
Once every 19 years…..is this the way it’s gonna be?