Last time

Some nights I overthink
Some nights its hard to speak
Speak what's on my mind and what I feel in my heart
Leaving you was real it was the loving you that was hard
This is the last time I speak about you
Last time I think about you
Last time I sit here and say there wasn't a me without you
Because there is and there was
I just didn't know who I once was
I lost her amongst all the drugs
I lost her amongst everything I thought the world once was
But I realize now this is the last time

This song wont have a hook
This song will just be another look
Look at how my life changed once I left the toxic shit behind
Last time I tell you anything and take back all the shit that's mine
I finally have someone who loves me
Took way better care of me
You couldn't see how much I would bleed
In the darkness how I would scream
The only ones I had were real ass friends
And i know they gonna be with me till the end
Loyalty was everything but everything isn't everything when your stuck on a bottle
You scared to be alone
You scared to be at home
Cant even call that place your home cause all you ever fucking did was Roam
Bitch you had everyone fooled thinking I was the fool too
I was never this fucked uo inside till I met you
Got drunk off the lies
Had to find meetings to not feel like i was the only one who dies
Dies every time inside when you had me fooled
I found a community of others who let me know it wasn't just me
That's my tool
God is my witness
I just could never do this
Never trust someone like you
But I got to trust the one that's been better than you
If I would've seen that three years ago
I could've had everything
I could've been married
All you wanted to do was drink your excuses till we were dead and buried
I had to want better
I had to be better
But this is the last time
Last time I speak on this
Last time I speak on you
Last time I ever think about the foolish person I was for you