Just has

it has screwed me up      
in life      
what, where, boom...      
bing, bang, wow, see what i mean      
i can't even write about it,  
talk about it     
it's like that book "50 shades of grey"      
yea, 50 shades of black...what darker black      
lighter black, just damm black-Boom!---Black      
dark black, pitch black, midnight black      
razzle, tamazle, dazel      
fucked me right up...still does.