it's been some time

It's been some time
i truly feel
that i've honestly expressed

the depths within my chest
what i hide
put into words

it's been some time
if i can feel
that i've honestly progressed

hold the ability to possess
this wreck
this fuckin' mess

blessed
but set with constant tests
that would bring most to their deaths

in this next
to never rest
appreciating each half-breath

fearful to reach my end
and escape it when i can

fearful to lose a friend
who makes me who i am?

how do you live in someone's head?
they paint your picture in their minds

how do you live within your own?
their pain, that you call yours

it's been some time
that's what i really want to say

it's been some time
simply escaped

it's been some time
can't tell if i've grown or decayed

it's been some time
that washed away

i miss the future
but if i may just say
it's been some time since yesterday