Doubt

 
It feels so pathetic
Waiting for your next text
You don't have a clue do you?
Imagine me actually saying
how much you mean to me
How pathetic would that be
It can't be true
 
Nothing actually shows
that you feel the same way
There's no indication
Just me always overthinking
No double meanings
Just keep on dreaming
All the subtext is in my imagination
 
Maybe it's not even about you
But about me feeling alone
Of wanting someone to call me special
You're really nice though
Or is that what I've created?
Changed the image that I hated
Because alone I feel so small
 
It's just confusing
I wish I could sort this out
But I'd be too scared of the outcome
So for now I'm just filled with doubt