Numb

I never knew of a sadness such as mine, a sadness that could swallow the whole god damn world.
It is as if it has cracked my chest open and scooped out my heart and lungs, leaving behind nothing but cotton and wool.
I am as empty as I have ever been, and yet the sadness that lives within my skin demands more.

I never knew that a world like this could feel so empty and alone, and yet have so many people living and breathing around you.
Sometimes I am so jealous of them all, how easily they live and breathe.
I am jealous of them because I wish so badly that it could be me.

I never knew of a sadness such as mine; a sadness so fierce that It could swallow the whole god damn world.
It is as if it has taken me with it too, that it is emptying me from the inside out.
That soon enough I will be as empty as the sea that is waiting to take me home.
That I won't be me, only a shell as empty as the sea.