I Don't Really Belong Here

I don’t really belong here;
It’s not depression or anxiety anymore.
This is not my worry or fear,
Or my worst nightmare—
I don’t really belong here.

I can’t even accept
The fact that I’m alive,
Breathing, galloping through
Every second of my life.
I wish death could be by my side.

I can’t even accept
The idea of happiness;
My heart is struck with pain,
Repeating every single day.
You see, I don’t really belong here.

Whether you try to drag me around,
Show me places I’ve never found,
Make me count the sunsets
And paint their magnificence,
I don’t really belong here.

Whether you try to change my mind,
Give me compliments with each word,
Sing me lullabies on my dark nights,
Prove that you’ll be by my side,
I don’t really belong here.