Broken

My head is pounding
The noise resounding
My heart is racing
Some sleep I'm chasing
 
To feel okay
For one whole day
To feel awake
And never break
 
I can't survive
Or run and hide
From all this pain
This hurricane
 
Of emotion and headaches
The falling of the snowflakes
The devil creates my prison
The darkness has arisen
 
The monster inside of me
These chains, I'm never free
Torn apart by life itself
Stuck within my inner hell
 
I try to dream
I cross the stream
But I'm pulled under
No way to wonder
 
I'm lost and alone
And crushed to stone
And never felt
Someone who helped
 
A swollen boulder
It's getting colder
I start a fire
But the flames retire
 
I don't got much here
And nothing's clear
I'm in a maze
And spreads the blaze
 
I've no way out
I go to shout
But no one heard
Not a single word
 
I'm sick and so tired
It's hard to be inspired
Hard to believe and hope
It's the end of the rope
 
I can not sleep
Or even weep
I don't have love
No loving dove
 
I'm a lonely man
On an open land
But water will push
Sharp thorns from the bush
 
I write it all down
Or else I would drown
From the thoughts that I have
Of things always bad
 
I can't climb this mountain
Or drink from the fountain
Banished to the depths
Without a purpose yet
 
A hand I wish to hold
A life I wish to mold
A story I wish to create
But I'm struggling with fate
 
I imagine if I
Could just sleep at night
If I had no fear
If the road was near
 
But instead I don't know
The light doesn't glow
My mind is in flames
The picture split frames
 
Remember the past
I simply am last
I try to move on
But the pain isn't gone
 
I can't seem to forget
I have much regret
I could have been greater
But down in the crater
 
Been a hero to my sister
Instead of a blister
A hero to my mother
I really do love her
 
But I'm lost from within
Brought down by sin
No one else to blame
I played this game
 
So how can I traverse
I'm stuck in reverse
I keep screwing up
It's never enough
 
Setback to my health
Never much wealth
I want to believe
Some hope to receive
 
But I can't seem to fight
The dark enternal night
And so here I fail
My only tale
 
All promise no results
I hear the insults
I critique my own mind
I can't find the time
 
To become something more
But, bam goes the door
Locked and no key
No path I can flee
 
So backwards I go
Like water I flow
But I can not swim
So I've fallen again
 
I'll end this with a note
A truth I just wrote
How I feel about me
And what I see