Too Crazy To Be Loved?

Just wanna be loved



at the end of the day.



Guess I'm too fucked up



for anyone to stay.



If they saw my mess like J.



I guess I deserve to pay.





Am I chasing a fantasy?



That anyone can love me?



Am I too crazy?





Going down the rabbit hole,



I am blackening my soul.



Because I doubt, I doubt



that anyone will accept me.



Too much baggage.





One step forward,



"Someone can and will."



Two steps back,



"Someone may not."



All I keep thinking



is cuz he left me,



that they all will.





Am I chasing a fantasy?



That anyone can love me?

Am I too crazy?





I just know there's a deep chasm;



a deep abyss



that makes me a girl who's hard to miss.



Maybe I'm too ill



with a cup too heavy to fill.





Maybe my ex friend was right



when she said that



no one has the capacity



to deal with my issues.





I guess I've watched too much Teen Titans,



thinking like BB loved Terra,



someone'd love me the same.



Someone so broken yet beautiful.



My hero.





Am I chasing a fantasy?



That anyone can love me?

Am I too crazy?





Is it all just a fantasy?



Please, someone tell me.





Is it all just a fantasy?