Alone but not really

I look at my pictures and wonder
If they were real because I don't remember -
The person I see. You were always a stranger.
With a friend but now I know better
They smile and now I see the sinister
Yet you're smiling like it was now or never
And now?
I recall how somber
I recall how pathetic
Weak. Alone. Apathetic.
I always thought it was genetic
Like my mother's tears were prophetic
Of how the world will treat me without ethic
Of how even I will refuse to be sympathetic
You've been hurt enough from that aesthetic
So I -
Remember you clearly
Hiding in your room to wilt
I sympathize with you sweetly
Even when you just want to quit
I love you freely
Even when your taxes hit
I love you deeply
Even when you keep forgetting it