Mental wars

While trying to find myself i lost myself even more
The world out there is rough, i don't even know what i was looking for
At first i felt like a kid in a candy store
Realizing to late that my fate A state of war
 
War rules apply in the need for survival
No Trust, no mercy and no love. Everyone's a rival
Get too close and a burn is without a doubt
A warning before it even begins- Bow out!
 
Like a Viking on the shore of a rich kingdom I moored
Invading your gates and raiding your home with a drawn sword
I took your gold and silver and raped your home
You never expected it, my intentions were unknown
I sail off into the sunset before your defenses were mounted
For my actions i will one day be held accounted
 
My drive is selfish and i cant afford hostages or allies
Going for it alone might also not be wise
But loyalty to HER is the only way to ensure that I will never endure
The flimsy promises of a fake savior
 
For now I annihilate and suppress and subjugate
Destroying everything in my path seems to be my fate
Yet also understanding that sacrifices must be made
For Love, happiness and trust will debilitate
Keeping my mind in an enslaved state
 
Keep friends close and enemies Closer they say
Why do that when its easy to just walk away
For if my enemies would take a closer look
They would find that I'm a fish and life's the hook
And I'm the prey which they mistook
For a heartless warrior. A beastly crook.
 
For now i fight for the  treasure i seek
Pearls, diamonds, gold and silver you are all the same. none unique.
For you make everyone see your beauty and pretend to be
of the same value as treasures no one can see!
 
Dig deep today - Introspection!
What do i really see in my reflection?
I see a queen with a Viking heart  
Ready to fucking rip this world apart
The end goal is Liberation
Inward mutation.