Look Up If You Can.

I thought i was alone in the world.
Now i see that I'm surrounded.
Why is it that we always want what we don't have?
I want nothing more than loneliness.
Thats what i deserve.
Pain.
Misery.
Sadness.
For the rest of my existence.
Payback for what I've done wrong.
Deep down what i really want is to be free.
Free from these thoughts.
To look up and not see stars that have burned out.
But see light trying to reach out to me.
I used to think that suffering was normal.
But its far from the norm.
I want things to look forward too
and true happiness.
To look for the good in things.
Instead of pulling hate out of everything.
I used to say that id rather look up at the stars alone then look down at the dirt with anyone.
But now i see that I don't have to look at the stars alone.
That there's hope in every tear.
That some day things WILL change.
and they will.
They've changed so much already.
A new beginning.
And an end to my old thoughts and maybe one day my addicting.
Look up if you can.
While you can.
Because so many people are already looking down.