bones

i like to feel my bones
and grit my teeth
i like to bite my nails
and never asleep

i like diet soda
and eating nothing else
i like to be alone
perfectly by myself

i like the warm sun
and the green grass
i like to feel the ocean
and shatter myself like glass

i like the smell of cake
and of fresh linen
i like blankets
with cozy clothes on my skin

i like the idea of avoidance
and to zone out and dream
i sometimes like to hurt myself
even past the extreme

i like flashing lights
and a soft whisper
i like to feel invincible
by turning without a blinker

i like to speak in spanish
even if wont learn
i like to light a candle
and watch it slowly burn

i like to stare at the mirror
and cry in disgust
but mostly i want to change
and healing is a must