when the world was alive

I never thought I could live without you
and I tried to stop the clocks from ticking
ticking
ticking
each second I lived without
you under my skin
I prayed for the apocalypse and
did things to myself to make believe I was dead

I never thought I could live a breath without you
and I am depressed because
I can

I suffered under the glare of sunlight and
let it burn my insides
when you told me you were gone
because I was gone long before you
but you were always there to
keep me held on

It is pathetic that I still gasp
and find it hard to breath when
I think of you
but that's how it is
when you try to die
and wake up alive and
alone

It is like the whole word has changed
and I am still living yesterworlds.