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WORK DRIVE FANTASY
the ramp for I-20 west is right there on my way to work
and it wouldn't take much to just say fuck it
and turn right and then right again onto 26
and head up toward Bryson City or Boone
and check into one of those little motels built in the 1960s
when life seemed kinder even in the midst of internal angst
and then call her and say, listen, i'm sorry but i couldn't take it anymore
none of it, the whole thing is ridiculous, i'm an old man
and i've done this my whole life and i'm fucking tired and i'm not
going back there and you can join me if you want or stay there
it doesn't matter because either way i'm done with it
and they can take the whole lot of it and i'll live in a fucking tent
and you can live in my tent, too, or you can find some other place to live
because this fucking job is squeezing the life out of me
and by that time i'm in the parking lot and then i'm clocking in
and then there i am, at it again, bumbling through another goddamn workday
and it wouldn't take much to just say fuck it
and turn right and then right again onto 26
and head up toward Bryson City or Boone
and check into one of those little motels built in the 1960s
when life seemed kinder even in the midst of internal angst
and then call her and say, listen, i'm sorry but i couldn't take it anymore
none of it, the whole thing is ridiculous, i'm an old man
and i've done this my whole life and i'm fucking tired and i'm not
going back there and you can join me if you want or stay there
it doesn't matter because either way i'm done with it
and they can take the whole lot of it and i'll live in a fucking tent
and you can live in my tent, too, or you can find some other place to live
because this fucking job is squeezing the life out of me
and by that time i'm in the parking lot and then i'm clocking in
and then there i am, at it again, bumbling through another goddamn workday
Published 19th Apr 2021
Author's Note
One long, quick spill expressing the angst of...stuckedness.
I feel stuck this morning.
I've got to get unstuck.
I feel stuck this morning.
I've got to get unstuck.
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19th Apr 2021 2:49pm
I feel this deeply..... I used to have fantasies like this on the way to work, during my breaks and on the drive home.... lol...Thankfully I have a job now that allows me the good fortune of keeping my soul intact. I send the same hopes your way, J.
Excellent write, despite the soul stealing...
🌹
xo
Excellent write, despite the soul stealing...
🌹
xo
19th Apr 2021 3:30pm
Thanks, Blue, for reading and for your encouraging comments.
In my youth I would quit a job in a heartbeat and just do something different. My joy were those stretches when I took temp jobs and pursued my interests, or when I was self employed.
I became a licensed practical nurse in 2000. I've never been quite comfortable in the role.
I've been at this facility longer than any other job in my life. I am so weary of it.
In my youth I would quit a job in a heartbeat and just do something different. My joy were those stretches when I took temp jobs and pursued my interests, or when I was self employed.
I became a licensed practical nurse in 2000. I've never been quite comfortable in the role.
I've been at this facility longer than any other job in my life. I am so weary of it.
20th Apr 2021 12:42pm
20th Apr 2021 1:13pm
Thanks for reading, my friend.
I've worked that job so long.
There is desire for change and fear of it.
I've worked that job so long.
There is desire for change and fear of it.
20th Apr 2021 3:27pm
I know that fear part a, too well
I always had to get laid off to make work changes. First time was after 23 years with a company. I know what you're going through J....
I always had to get laid off to make work changes. First time was after 23 years with a company. I know what you're going through J....
