Its Simple

So.... you ever feel like your rotting away?


I try to sleep the best I can
Hard, when scars are screaming at you man
I'll be damned if it slams my life in a jam
But then again .. here I am
Stuck in a mass problem for relationships
Aching fits, from my heart that's about frozen to bits
Debating if I should quit? Quit what life? Yea that shit
I will never commit suicide but Ill be asking for it..
Travailing through my mind, only images of old clocks with reverse time
Words from wise, seem to only put crows in the sky
I am not knowing why, am I the bad guy?
I just try to be the real me, I let them in my life and this is whats done to me
The moment it happens, guts are now acid, spit is rock solid, heart melts from the lack of tolerance
The next day, I am in a full mist of gloominess
I feel like they meant to do this bullshit, as I sit, then in the next few minutes I lay down
I see seem to be confused on what I want now
Now, its all over no laughs now no reason to look in the clouds
And image better things, shit im still trying to figure out whats a good mix to drink
So I can continuously get fucked up
Staying up till mind night trying to cure my guts
As I look at the ceiling.... with that numb feeling...

I remember I used to sit and watch candles burn
tricking wax by the simple handle turn
Asking myself, am I the object of a target
Because this is getting to be nonsense
Im going crazy pissed, and I think about eating human flesh
Or make the women feel my souls death
To be honest im still a sweet and caring guy, I dont know why
My lyrics used to get rid of trouble spirits
Now its like im letting them get near it
And im in the car with the power, as I steer it
But I guess I wasn't meant to live
I miss Caleb.. I wish they would've let me live...