worse things

i wish i never met you
because you are too beautiful
and the tingles you leave on the soft of my skin
are too delicate for someone
as scarred
and destroyed as i
i wish i never met you because
i know one day
you will feel the way i feel
and hate me for that
and you will hurt
i don't want you to hurt

i wish i never met you
so i could still paint a hundred portraits of
unknown faces and call them
'you'
and love you because it's not real
and i don't have to
realize i don't deserve you