ADDICATION

Have been addicated for over 9yrs ,addication became me .
when i think have hit my limit, thats when i push even further.
I can't control myself i get lost in thoughts
Some times i feel very sad and hate myself,
 Am just trying to find my way out from this addication.
I know its a process that i need to fight for,

The jounery of 1000km begins with astep.
Addication is my nakename,my thoughts are way to deep.
sometimes i forget what i mean to myself.
I mix drugs and thoughts together,
waking up evryday the first thought in my mind is getting high.
Am afraid to live and finding myself is my weakness.
I ask myself whats my purpose in life.?