Faulty feelings

Foreignness of feelings
faulty ones that I feign
fearful and fearsome all at once
full of regrets that I try to refrain
from doing but it’s all a fable
consisting of sugarcoated fibs
trying to shun all that is fatal
forging a world where no alibis fizz
foolishly fabricating a world of fiction
where fulfillment exists on a fairway
a fugitive from a philanthropic function
freedom is far & it’s growing further away
I fail to free myself from this frenzy
but I remain faithful to the feelings I feign
even if they’re fake I feel them immensely
they are my only way of ignoring the pain