My feelings

My heart is beating fast.
Feels like I am going to blast.
I am  always in very much pain.
No matter how much I try my effort goes in vain.
 
This pain is making me insane.
This pain is hitting me again and again.
I see no future just lost all hope.
This pain I am just not able to cope.
 
Show to the world I am very much glad.
Although from inside I am may be sad.
Show to the world I am okay.
Although I am may be having bad day.
 
My heart always ache.
Just feel everything in the world is fake.
Not that negativity always exist in my mind.
Positive things I try to find.
 
This pain I am not able to share.
This pain I am not able to bear.
Just not able to sleep at night.
About my feelings I don't talk I only write.