Walking Kamikazes

Walking kamikazes
Violent Zombies
Ticking time bombs with over exerted consciousness  
Underrepresented in the grand scheme
Some people get frustrated and take their personal pain out on others or themselves
Lock their feelings away
Then display the “Brave face,” as it’s called.
Our biological Battery life drains with each waking moment, but when the charge is focused within, what is the ratio between positive and negative?
I wanna address my folks for a second, cause Black people really don’t mess with mental health at all.
We have an ingrained construct, that tells us to protect loved ones without getting involved
They end up doing harm again  
Someone else’s silent distress lingers to fester
For either control or satisfaction
In domestic abuse, substance, sexual, or self-mutilation    
Why is there strength in keeping silent?
 
There’s bravery in remaining quiet and when you stand for something people act like you’re wrong.  
Toxic energy.
Expectations were never patient for some
 
I’m tired of walking into cemeteries. It's taking its toll on me.  
For real, cause it be people my own age.  
Not even from natural causes
The flaws in our systems are clear
For those who give a damn to see it
What I haven’t figured out yet is why the dialogue hasn’t started
I know I won’t solve everything but I’m hurt  
I can’t explain how much sadness I’ve had to grapple with and I’m not the only one
I’m not saying anything new, I just can’t predict where I’ll be in the future so I’ll spell it out now
Make the conversation about mental health a thing
We are what is keeping each other alive and balanced, the scales of wisdom are so finicky like the wind, so dammit, love one another or at least implore each other to see the humanity in your sisters and brothers.