Valentines Day 2021

Valentines Day 2021

I went through your phone
I couldn't help myself
You telling her you love her ?
I couldn’t help but laugh
Yet I’m the one to blame
For the ptsd of your past
Shorty talking about demons
They holding you back?
How can someone develop conclusions
With the bare minimum of facts
How can you develop feelings for someone
Who clearly is lying
How can you smile in my face
Behind my back -  not even trying
One mention of this
The rage is like no other
He will start to get angry
Jump in my face at the mere mention of her
She claims it’s true love
 why is he here ?
She claims he running from true happiness
again why is he here ?
Because I let him
I’m allowing the foolishness
Dead from the neck down
I can’t feel the misery
I have nightmares of the voices I battle everyday
I have dreams that the nightmares will finally go away
I wake up & fake my smile
Hold back tears it takes a while
I want to run
No where to go
I left before
And still came back
Thought I was stronger
It was the distance
Heart grew fonder
I start to miss him
I need to stop
& let him go
He needs to be
all on his own
Without me here
He will be fine
Same for me
Just takes some time
Build up them walls
A brick a day
My heart turns cold
I’ll go astray
I Care no more
I tried my best
Shot to death
This chapter dead