VIII

VIII
 
08/02/21
 
Dear love, I hope this letter greets you well!
 
You came into my life
And filled me with hope,
Gave me sense and reason,
Allowed me to fight my silent battles
At my own pace.

You had more trust to give
Than I ever warranted for,
And although I have brought it shuttering down,
You still chose that I'm worth your time
And that I'm worth your love.

You came along with joy
And a sense of tranquility,
You somehow managed to silence my demons
And command my storms to calm.

I always told you I would use you
To feel, to live, to be,
But it seems you have silently allowed me
Not only to use you,
But to also love you.

I won't lie, I am tempted most days
To never show up again,
To never show love again,
To go back to that hollowness
And bury away any semblance of order
That you have brought about.

Many nights when I am away,
I get tempted to go back to the familiar,
To the nightlife that once consumed me,
To the drugs that once owned me,
And to the friends that once accepted me.

I am no saint,
I have more than a fair share of errors,
I have more doubts and insecurities.
I often wonder what led you here,
What brought you back,
And I am always scared to answer that,
So I let it slide.

Faraway is a place in my mind where I bury all the doubt,
And all the stupid questions I don't want to ask,
Or maybe the answers I don't want to hear.

I am glad you are here,
I am glad I am here,
I am glad we decided to be here.
I love you,
And I ain't going nowhere.

Much Love ♥
NuBorn