I Don't Want to Know

I wish I knew what it was like to love
But I don't want to know – I don't want to know
I wish I could feel the gentle touch
But I don't want to know – I don't want to know

Too many lonely nights
Too many wasted days
Let another be driven to the edge of sanity
by the deceptive hand of romance

Love is too elusive, I'm not the first to say
The harder I search, the faster I run,
the more it slips away

Just out of reach, 'tween high and low
Till it makes me want to scream
“I give up, Life, you're so unfair!
Where's the Justice in your game?”

“Justice,” Life exclaims with a derisive snort,
“a delusion of poets and fools!”
“I can't be fair – it's not my way…
I make up my own rules.”

I wish I knew what it was like to love
But I don't want to know – I don't want to know
I wish I could feel the gentle touch
But I don't want to know – I don't want to know

So many contradictions
So many mental scars
I seek to escape this restless isolation
And with a patience borne of a mocking ambivalence

Await … the chance …. to start.