Grief

From this deep sorrow and
from this deep painful sadness 
I fall like an autumn leaf,


How can I move on or 
find a way to be strong again?
I feel like I'm trapped
in a dream where you are.. …. Not physically here 

Will I ever think of you and
not cry like a baby 

Sometimes a warm and happy memory plays in the oddest of times 
Sometime there is a calming feeling and eases the pain
like a beautiful sunshine when a new day has just begun 
But it only lasts for a minute or two and
 then it's dark rain clouds and tears of sadness;
 Wishing there was still the beautiful sunshine 


Will this grief’s bitter, cold,and  sadness consume me,
Like a winter storm?
How can I fill the void and deep desperate need
To replant my heart with hope’s lovely seed?


Then I look at a photo of your playful smiling face
And for a moment I escape to a serene happy place;
Remembering how things use to be 


When spring comes and brings its cheerful flowers bring life anew
Will  allow me to forget the agony of missing you?
Will spring’s burst of new life bring fresh hope
And teach my grieving soul how to cope?

Sometimes I’ll read a poem that reminds me of you 
And each word will have  special meaning makes me see,
The precious gift of love I was fortunate to receive,
And I realize it was time for you to go


Will the summer’s warm sun bring new light,
And free my soul of this terrible grief 
Will its gentle  warm summer breezes chase grief’s dark cold clouds away,
And show me a clear path towards a better day?

When I visit the grave where you lie in eternal peace,
I tell myself that your just missing or somewhere else 
and not really gone 

For all the remaining days of my life on earth, 
I will never forget you but I will try my best to move on
There’ll be days I’ll miss your presents 
And sometimes I’ll sadly long for all the yesterdays;
Missing our time together and your gentle understanding ways.


Yet, the lessons of silly things and love you taught me,
And the good things in life you’ve helped me to see;
Linger as lasting gifts that comfort and will sustain,
Until I journey to that peaceful place and see you again.