Unloveable

It's hard to find the match to your soul
Not knowing yourself in deep below
Searching for something blind in the dark
If there is no me, how could there be anyone?

Peace and love they all say, smiling at a rotten rose.
How could they be so certain in something nobody knows?
That everybody wants, nobody sees but everyone needs?
They are the ones who already found themselves being alone!

When can i join them in that pieceful life?
Am i just a burden for someone to like?
Or do i find happiness alone, being strong, but never full?
Fighting darkness on my own, proud to die, being a fool?

The weird people is where i belong
Never the weirdest, but taking it further more,
Like a proud leader of the unusual,
The only evergreen, on a field of frozen trees,

One kid that never stood in line,
Standing still while others criticised,
Laughing with them, not fearing having no friend
And now i start to believe them,
as I'm still "just a friend"

But i know it's not me, it can't be!
I'm still good enough,
Good enough for small talks, small walks
Good enough for a friend to give a helping hand
Good enough for you to cry on my shoulder,
Good enough for a girl until the game is over!

But I'm not good enough for a long walk on a summer night,
Not good enough to hold your hands tight,
Not good enough to cry over,
Not good enough for a girl's love hour.

Maybe it was my mistake, showing absolutely no fear,
Diving ahead, making my path of weirdness, still to this day
I tried to be so strong, almost untouchable
So the title can be, Unloveable!