this is not ok

i woke up right now i feel like im in a daze
i took my axietty pill because today I'm not ok
i started thinking maybe I should dig my own grave
I don't know what else I can say

my mental health is decling
i swear this isn't just a phase
I know my thoughts are lying
i just want to start over and hit erase

i just want to feel ok
now I feel the Depression
now that I have your attention there's a lot of things I have to say
now I have a question

how does it feel that you pushed me to this rage
why everytime you have an issue you put things about me online
its like I'm stuck in this small cage
you say your ok its cool its fine

you want me to be the bad guy
your the one who wont see your daughter
all you ever do is lie
how can you call yourself a father

there I go again getting triggered
this is so toxic
that I have to an anxiety pill
just to deal with you

I like better when you are away
I'm going to break down and cry
I don't care what you say
I want to escape and fly

I'm so stress
its a replay in my head
over and over please stop I know I'm blessed
I just want to go to sleep alone in my bed

I'm searching for a way out from you
you follow me
you make me feel like I'm insane
please go