menutup mata

there are moments like these when
a passerby shows her magic tricks
but she sees right through it
moments like these when
she wraps herself up and
closes in away from the world

she can see her future burning
and she's run out of extinguishers.

she sings now without emotions
because there are certain songs
that hold too much of
her

it is a sickening gutfeeling when
you realize there was almost a pinch of something real
and you almost feel
what you've never felt in a while
and you remember
what it was like
to have feelings

but feelings never last, because
you're too scared to accept them

there are moments like these when
big words numb her
and she sits on a windowsill
counting the stars
on the tip of her fingers

silently
silently
she closes her eyes
and wishes for eternity


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close your eyes.