Beware! Hazardous Waste

They say
You should try    
Healing yourself    
I prefer peeling back    
The layers    
That reveal the raw sewage  
Of my soul    
   
Its putrid aroma    
Fills the air    
Around me    
Like morning mist    
But not as alluring    
Be wary of the snile    
Its camoflague    
   
Hiding    
A multitude of sins    
I incubate    
These dark emotions    
Give them breeding ground    
To thrive    
Define my existence    
   
I create    
I destroy    
Wonder if i'm here    
For amusement    
Hate what i've become    
Innocence was once    
A strong shield    
   
Now    
A ravager    
Of  good thouhts    
Can't feel    
Unless some kind    
Of pain    
Occupying my mind    
   
No sweet kiss    
My venom    
Is caustic    
To any heart    
That ventures close    
Be it intentional    
Or not