Different

Why am i so different
everything around me seems the same
and I'm the only odd out

Why was i born such way
no one understands me
I'm here in a world of my own

I can't be with someone
without hurting them
and there's no way
to heal their pain

Is different good
Is it bad
that i know not
will the lost soul ever find a home
maybe yes, maybe not

The hate i have for myself
grows stronger everyday
am i to take it upon myself
to end this life
or let the world take me as it's prey

I feel trap and stuck
like i can't escape
and I'm fighting to die
than fighting to live

With all these emotions inside
i know I'll crash and burn
so I'll sit here and wait patiently
till death is my turn