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in the wake of height
i spin on my own ferris wheel
dizzy with fright
that ill be left to stew
that my eyes pleading for relief
fall on deaf mind
that looks beyond the me of i
not allowing me to be a distraction
my words stumbling through a tight gag
dripping on the floor for you to wade through
in that aloof morse code
of clicking heels preparing for a day beyond
the thrill of your almost attention
that hardly tends to me at all
my neuroscreaming
breeding silence
your presence a false salve
as you pat my head
and think of someone else
dizzy with fright
that ill be left to stew
that my eyes pleading for relief
fall on deaf mind
that looks beyond the me of i
not allowing me to be a distraction
my words stumbling through a tight gag
dripping on the floor for you to wade through
in that aloof morse code
of clicking heels preparing for a day beyond
the thrill of your almost attention
that hardly tends to me at all
my neuroscreaming
breeding silence
your presence a false salve
as you pat my head
and think of someone else
Published 11th Nov 2020
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20th Jan 2021 8:14pm
I am slowly trying to make rounds through your offerings. I really love the Ferris wheel, dizzy with fright - great imagery and a good representation of that repeated cycle of pain, pleasure, and the isolation of being ignored and having your ego stripped away. You have weaved the powerlessness and sometimes ruthless blatant disregard throughout. The aloof morse code is a great representation of an attempt to communicate some semblance of your own needs. My neuroscreaming breeding silence - how torture and having all selfish needs ignored can breed silence and peace. That line reminded me of this 'As a prey for new psychotraumas' from 'Jealous of your power' - the last BDSM one I wrote.
20th Jan 2021 8:34pm
thank you...yes you are hitting all the right notes in your analysis...and i do know that line from your poem - and it made me want to know more about what it meant actually!
you were left on an icy hot bed as prey...bring on the psychodramas :)
you were left on an icy hot bed as prey...bring on the psychodramas :)
20th Jan 2021 8:42pm
Along the same vein of putting yourself in someone else's hands to experience their darkest unbridled desires. And that torturous explosive combination of pain, pleasure, and even torment from being that doll which they are playing with. Psycho dramas - shhhh- don't tell anyone. lol
