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Final Fantasy IX - Memories of that Day
My addiction takes grasp of judgement
Always acting in the now, and feeling guilty for it later
Stealing from the ones I love,
Forgiving those, the ones I should hate
To use, to live, I only mean to survive, but they not understand
Like a tunnel train without its headlights, I never even saw this coming
Withdrawals were just a myth, but now arise
Perpetually, every sunrise,
Depressing how I went from work and school
To barricading bathrooms, scraping off the residue
Colorblind, too ashamed to face myself
My morals, time ago, slipped into the shadows,
Afflicted by everything I can only blame myself for.
God's time to turn his back was way past overdue
How do you save yourself,
From yourself?
Always acting in the now, and feeling guilty for it later
Stealing from the ones I love,
Forgiving those, the ones I should hate
To use, to live, I only mean to survive, but they not understand
Like a tunnel train without its headlights, I never even saw this coming
Withdrawals were just a myth, but now arise
Perpetually, every sunrise,
Depressing how I went from work and school
To barricading bathrooms, scraping off the residue
Colorblind, too ashamed to face myself
My morals, time ago, slipped into the shadows,
Afflicted by everything I can only blame myself for.
God's time to turn his back was way past overdue
How do you save yourself,
From yourself?
Published 2nd Feb 2012
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3rd Feb 2012 4:23am
I know these feelings all too well. You express them simply, but perfectly. I especially love the last line and how it's separated into two pieces. Great read!
3rd Feb 2012 7:26pm
5th Feb 2012 3:55am
well if there are moments of wellness in an attempt to "save oneself from oneself" i believe your on the right(write)path... plan b was always methadone or morose poems...dig the read
5th Feb 2012 11:22am
Yes. Plan B was a long term suboxone treatment. I was convinced that a long term suboxone treatment would end with a withdrawal free life. However, that was NOT what happened. As I got closer to 2mg I was withdrawing by the end of the night, and the result ended it complete failure. Thousands of dollars went to waste from suboxone alone.
26th Feb 2015 3:32pm
Saving your self would be to first admit you got a problem. That was my first step and hardest because you desperately want every know you're fine.
This was write on. Perfectly Written.
Darker.
This was write on. Perfectly Written.
Darker.
