Final Fantasy IX - Memories of that Day

My addiction takes grasp of judgement
Always acting in the now, and feeling guilty for it later
Stealing from the ones I love,
Forgiving those, the ones I should hate
To use, to live, I only mean to survive, but they not understand
Like a tunnel train without its headlights, I never even saw this coming
Withdrawals were just a myth, but now arise
Perpetually, every sunrise,
Depressing how I went from work and school
To barricading bathrooms, scraping off the residue
Colorblind, too ashamed to face myself
My morals, time ago, slipped into the shadows,
Afflicted by everything I can only blame myself for.
God's time to turn his back was way past overdue
How do you save yourself,
From yourself?