NUMB

 
I been living life in the fast lane feeling I'm in last place
The pain I been concealing often comes from these bad days
Sad to say but I've become crazy and ever since you left I've stayed faded tryna numb the pain
Afraid to love again cause I've been crushed by the heart ache
Betrayed by one's I loved cause them motherfuckers fake
I can't function without drugs but the drugs make me change
Shattered by resentment and ever since I relapsed I just ain't the same
My depression got me stressed out and left in disarray
I'm desperate and I'm under pressure but I promise I won't suffocate
It's hard to anticipate tomorrow when you're out of place
Swear to God I had it hard, I hate all the mistakes I've made
Praying I could turn the hands of time back to a blank slate
But it ain't no way, if I ain't faded I can't think straight
Dancing with Satan, surrounded by the strangest faces makes me absolutely hate the very thought of my death date
So I self medicate to help myself, I ain't okay
Using drugs to escape confusion is a bad trait
Ruined by the things that people say make me run away
Searching for some peace and about to break cause I'm impatient
Hopeless and anxious or maybe I'm just crazy
Praying to the angels to protect me and keep my family safe
Constantly lost in this nonsense, it'll never change
Being stuck in the rain made me vicious but I'm still the same
Broken with no energy, I'm my own worst enemy
My lucks running low, I'm not friends with the enemy
On this lonely road no one listens to a sinner sing
Being raised with no guidance made me cold as a winter breeze
Drugs turned me to a thief and stole my inner peace
Concern and left in disbelief, I burned the bridges that I need
She left me feeling incomplete so I kill the feelings cause I no longer want to feel a thing
The pain changed me, swear I ain't the same no more
My life is crazy, I get high when I'm feeling low
Attracted to the danger, never let emotions show
They see my pain entertaining and I turn cold
My pain diminishes, I been less ambitious
Rapidly losing emotion, stressed and insensitive
I guess I'm stressed cause my life is a fucking mess
I wasn't happy so I let my soul lay to rest