Regrets

Well regrets, I've had a few
But then again... Wait a minute
I've had more than a few
But the greatest has to be my time
And how I spent it

Spent most of kids childhood
Killing off my brain cells
Lost most of those precious memories
While I was lost in a living hell

First steps, first words,
First days of school
Lost because I was wasted
Acting like a fool

Now when I'm asked, remember when?
The answers usually no
And then there's the birthdays
When I was too "sick" to show

If I could go back
And change it, I would
But I can start from scratch
And be the Dad I should