Stars

I can see the stars from here,
And though I felt my light disappear
A while ago;
It gives me hope.
That thing inside of me that broke,
Words thought in mind
But left unspoke,
Seem like the butt of my own jokes.
I do this to myself.

To touch on mental, they say my health,
But I held it, I was so proud.
To firm it, contain the voices loud,
That made me want to scream and shout,
Still suffocate those sounds, for now,
They always bleed right through.

And they did, dissolving my minds glue
That kept it all intact.
Imploding, an all consuming black,
No recollection of time or fact,
My brain's design stopped in it's tracks,
Where is my mind?
I snatch it back.

They tentatively tiptoe since it took place,
I appreciate it all the same.
Feel the love from all my loved,
The affect of my infliction.
The gravity of all of my decisions,
Not just I, but them in my position,
Through my eyes they try,
To see my side,
I couldn't ask for more.
I wait on the steps of a grey front door.
The sky is clear. I can see the stars.