Night After

Blood in the tub
Binding and strangling
Of arteries
Not enough
 
Uncle just dead a week
You took your life in front of me
I knew you couldn't live without him
But that night...
 
We were dancing
Funeral done
Drinking
Plastered beyond imagining
 
We cried about Christopher
My brother
Dead and gone
And when I was asleep.....
 
I miss your laugh
I hate that memory
Of you
Lifeless
White
Long gone
 
As I cried and called
Tied your wrists
Pounded your chest
So lifeless
But I still thought
The cold would drift
 
You always said you would
But I never believed.