where did you go?

I look in the mirror at my reflection
High as the sky thinking I was fooling anyone but myself
My need for bathroom breaks were endless
always powdering my nose
with blow and assortments of dope
you could ask me where to find any kind
I know many people
as my supply built up
my actions grew more lethal
I lost many friends
they told me I was too dark
that my mind was a prison
and I need to restart
I rejected all opinions
I loved only the cocaine
the opinions of others did not matter
I shrugged my shoulders and deemed them lame
I looked at myself again
two years went by
My face sunken in
my eyes dull as a old kitchen knife
my mind had been lost
the drugs had taken over
I was a walking corpse
I would mourn for myself over and over