..devotion..

..mother..  
..my fiercest lightning storm teacher..  
..your gale force winds full of broken glass..  
..your words spit nails crucified my youngest heart..  
..pulsating lamb guts on a giant cross..  
..loving you is a pitiful crawl barefoot across an ocean of crackling slicing lava coals..  
...the weight you carried..  
..your own young lamb quivering in the darkest rotting bog..  
..i know this lineage burden well..  
..skinless with no shelter in a world of salted rains..  
..custom tailored terror..  
..and so it is..  
..there it is..  
..what the fuck and oh my gods..  
..breathe that in..  
..check that out..  
..and cause it's ready..  
..the pen keeps writing..  
..the story doesn't stop here..  
..no..no..not here.. no way..  
..it..just..got..good..  
..sniff the sweet pressed trees of new pages..  
.. the prayers delivered..  
remember?
..shrieking crying face down, snot pools bubbled into the muddied dirt for something better..  
..the dead ones heard..murmered back..signed sealed and delivered..  
..the wind blew..  
..the earth shook..  
..the helpers dropped in..  
..they opened the field..  
.. a place where the whispers of angel wings grace our young faces and aide our gaping wounds..  
..kissed, cooed, rocked and held by the highest ones..  
..love so fierce even rotting lamb guts turn to new born night jasmine..  
..now that i see your fate in the murky cauldron of constellations..  
..my hero's journey goggles retired to the hooks of distorted love..  
..i shall carry a million pounds of pain no more..  
..honoring the perfection of what is..  
..palms up belly down bowing to the regent of Love, to You..mom..  
..tear buckets full fresh from the appreciation well For My Life..  
..i love you more than you will ever fucking know..  
..devotion..