Paradise

In these words I learn to admire
No longer sad, I’m inspired
Writing lyrics till my grave
Didn’t think I’d change it soon
But now there’s mind to save
No longer bitter or consistent
Yeah, now I play a different role
Motivation fuels my mind and pumps it right into my soul
Yeah, I’m not on drugs, but I’m so high
Pleasant change from that low
Purpose to live long, not to die
Am I next? I’ll let you know
Talk about life? Room to grow
Life is springing, words taught me so
I may have a lot to go but with these words I’m going pro , yeah


And though these days.. Never felt so long
But it’s not a bad thing, it’s not a bad thing
Yeah, these days.. They never felt so long
They never felt so long
It’s not a bad thing, it’s not a mad thing
It’s my paradise


Yeah, I’d struggle to grow up with what’s inside of me
Panic in my brain, heart is heavy, don’t know how to settle down all the anxiety
Salvation in this calmness, I’m sitting quietly
Tell me how you feel, don’t tell me something wrong, try to lie to me
Yeah, I just tend to feel a calmness in this sitting
Running on the grass, keep on kicking
Ball in these drills I’ve been living
But it’s hard to keep living in despair
I’d think about you, you weren’t there
Accept the fate I’d have and I’d become that bit more aware
It’s not fair, but it’s care
Care for your health, be selfish, you’ve gotta care for yourself
Being too selfless is gonna drag you in a well
Drowning in that water like you can’t swim, you need help
You could be busy falling asleep, but you’re busy falling awake
Going through your prescriptions, not sure of the next drug you wanna take
You’re so far gone, but you know medicine won’t help you on this day
So now you pray to the gods hoping for them to take this pain away, yeah


And though these days.. Never felt so long
But it’s not a bad thing, it’s not a bad thing
Yeah, these days.. They never felt so long
They never felt so long
It’s not a bad thing, it’s not a mad thing
It’s my paradise


Now you rehab up, trying to avoid that cell
You’re wanted for your crimes, but you’re deep down I can tell
You’ve done the wrong thing, but you’re hurting, yeah, I felt
But if you turn this around, yes for you, a heart will melt
You’re not a king, but your hand was dealt
So take those cards and earn your wealth
Take some privilege, it won’t hurt
Not in the dirt, you’re not in hell
They’d say if you’re a man, you don’t need help
But like these cards, this wasn’t chosen, it was dealt
Find acceptance, it’ll be okay
Not quite stable, there’s other ways
On the beach, the sun shows ray
In this paradise, this becomes just another day.... Yeah


Though they never felt so long..
They never felt so long
They weren’t bad, they weren’t wrong
They were my paradise