The One

Do you ever think about growing old together?
Whether or not that is something you want?
Would you be happy with a future like that
Will we be always, and forever
I will never stop loving you...
There is nothing you could do to cause it to die

But those words were so empty, as meaningless as poetry
For they are just words you see.. Right? They're just words...
There is no doubt that I feel what I write in the moment I strike
Each key each night in the fight to cope with and quell this demon's spite
It delights in my failures... which it ignites
It grills, it stokes the pyre bright
It feasts upon self inflicted blight
As constant as the black cloud that follows
Just. Out. Of. Sight.

You couldn't handle the sickness that lives
In me, with me, as me, you witnessed
Destroying the man that you'd fallen in love with
I know it was hard, there is no justice
Toxic fumes rising, a mouth that is frothing
An aperture worthy of purging
Forgiveness; resigning
Just leave me abandoned
Just set yourself free
Don't you look back
Don't you dare pitty me

Whether I'm the accent at the bottom of a rope
Whether I'm drowning or whether I float
Is none of your concern as of now
Don't worry...
You left me, what does it matter?
I will rise from these ashes
Their motes will swirl around me
I am a Phoenix, burning his surroundings
Such beauty in agony comes at a price  
I pay every day living my life

Every. Day. Forsaken

Paint me a demon
Place all the blame
I am the one...
Responsible for the pain