Grief lifes emotional rollercoaster ride

Angry cause you left us ,guilt ridden cause I didn't visit you more,
sad beyond compare , disappointed in the medical profession leukemiah can eat a bag of dicks, so can the doctors that took your pain killers and called you an addict , people are so misguided and sick , you suffered and hurt when it didn't have to happen , neurapathy depression my ma never complained bless her heart that went to shit on her six open heart surgeries later , she was a fighter so strong , to not have her smiling soul here is a fucking sin , She was unconditional love she never cared what I was or wasnt doing she just loved me . She only saw perfection standing in front of her . she believed in my hopes my dream my talent she was always there to encourage me no matter what endeavor i was on. She is heavens angel now her place ever made. She is the winds song now, she is the warm sun on my face, she is white sand between my toes , she is a crashing west palm beach wave, she is saved in my soul, She is a warm summer rain she is walking without a cane, She is not feeling pain,
Her spirit is so big her soul covers us all , all her kin she was my best friend, my most honest critic, she said whatever you want work for it and youll have it. She never let me get down on myself . She was strict when i was a kid but it was cause she loved me. I miss her voice even her obnoxious laughter, her quick wit and her smart mouth . she was a mother a friend a sister a cousin a wive an artist worship leader song writer poet an actress a play write she was a child of god and now shes at his right hand still a prayer warrior Im certain , Mama its time for my memories to call the curtain , one last standing ovation one last letter ode to you with adoration I love you mama sleep well mama without you here i felt like a shell mama and then i begin to refill mama and this roaler coaster of emotion overwelms mama Im trying to stay strong mama but some days I just wish I could just talk to you one more time just hold your hand one more time , Im just so angry mama But I know to keep you here would have been selfish , You aren't in pain now mama walking freely unassisted singing without losing your breath , until we meet again mama I'll try to keep making you proud mama I love you Love me sweet dreams mama you are a queen mama!