Sickly Loved

I couldn't stop it
I wanted it more
Come, insanity!
It keeps me calm
It keeps me sane-

Flesh under my nails
I grated off his back
He didn't stop the pain-
He wanted it
So sadistic and eager

He ripped the hair
Out of my skull
Blood running down
my shivering cheeks
Screams stopped now

Pushing me down
on the dirty floor
I don't stop to think
To warn
To whisper

I ripped out his throat
  Just like that
With blood spewing
like a fountain of life
Drained...

My tears start to roll
Cold, like liquid Mercury
Dripping into his neck
So I cry over him
And just walk away

Years past and I came back
My conscious wouldn't let it pass
The wallpaper curled off the wall
Windows thickly covered in dust
As if to hide what lies behind

There he lies on the dirty, wooden floor
With maggots crawling through
his thick, dirty hair
And under his skin

His eyes, faded and grey
No life left in this body
Yet he seems to have a smile
Twisted and wicked
As always...

I kiss him
on his cold lips
Saliva and blood
Sticky on my lips
I just licked it off
with my warm tongue

I loved to hate him
I loved to despise him
I hated to love him...