STUMBLING THROUGH THE DARK

So many of us out here somewhere, have experience this type of abuse that seems to reach deeper than you wish it did inside of you, continually attacking the very fabric of your mind subconsciousness. To the point of invading your heart and soul filling you, with an deeper overwhelming feeling of being still trap in a vortex dream, that ended long ago when it became clear that they never did love you yet it still hurts. But yet it still haunts you in your mind having you thinking that you are unworthy of any kind of love, as the visions of the images of words spoken and followed by their actions taken, seemly leaving you feeling more alone and
 abandon than you've ever felt in your soul of souls. But yet it has you wondering through the deepness of the pain, like a zombie half dead cause by a love that wasn't really love at all. For some folks will tell you to get over it but yet, what if the shoes were on their foot would they feel the same way. For how can one ever get over it being heart broken and abandon when the abuse has buried itself beneath, the surface of your subconsciousness ripping out your heart with no regards of how many pieces linger through the damage. Yet slowly shifting your emotions and feelings to run and hide within the darkness, for its not easy to forget the hurt and pain along with the suffering at the hands of another. When it still affects you mentally and physically and emotionally and spiritually, when they were supposed to love and honor and respect you. Yet only leaving behind in there wake, the depth of their darkness to follow you not giving you the chance, to be able to be loved unconditionally and to be understood intelligently as you have feelings and emotions that runs deep within you.