Worth the fight

Stronger each day that I try
Im moving on,
Not just getting along.
That one decision changed my life.

Consumed by not feeling alive,
every day made me wish that I’d die.
I didn’t care enough to try,
I couldn’t move, Just sit and cry.
Undeserving, selfish, worthless
So dead and numb inside.

Sunlight my greatest hate
Mornings tears cried straight away,
I’d weep for hours, never rising my head.
Cold cheeks,
runny nose and Dizziness.
My sad face buried deep all day,
in a soaking wet pillowcase.

Comforted by darkness , my sleep was my escape
No nightmare could be worse than being awake .
Laying in bed
Repeating the pain
In this immobile state
On replay, time would fade

Hurt starts in the heart then gets stuck in the head
Your body takes it hard too
It gets worse as It spreads

So Sore in your back
So stiff in the neck.
Weakened knees
Shaking hands .
Frail arms
Swollen legs .
Dull skin,
Dark eyes
Pale face,
Oily hair .

Depression was my hardest fight .
My lesson learned was it’s all in the mind. What you think in the mind does comes alive.
Your thoughts, your brain
your greatest weapon in life

Control becomes easier
but it also takes time

Good or bad
wrong or right
negative, positive
truth or lies
Happy or sad
live or die
Obvious answers, complicated minds .