Screams

My body screams
To be touched
Sensuality often lacking
Or simply not there

My mind screams
To be heard
To share interactively
Making a cerebral connection

Want to talk
Want to share
Near impossible
With aloofness near

Ending up here
Time and time again
In my room of abyss
I often despair

My bed a favorite friend
I can play and romp
All by myself
And really who cares

In the darkness
No one can see
No one can hear
Quiet as a mouse

Behind my shades
Of self-loathing
Wanting to hide
Softening my screams

Time is fleeting
Pain increasing
Hair is whitter
Teeth are chattering

Only me to blame
Choices made
To explain
Screaming in despair