Dear Brother

I have some feeling's to uncover.
I never meant to put you under;
Make your world thunder.

I know on the surface,
It looks like I did this on purpose.
At least I can honestly say,
I resent myself every day.

I have all of this crippling weight on my shoulders;
It feels like a huge fucking boulder.
It makes it hard to be a soldier.

I've lost my drive to fight,
It secretly makes me want to take flight.
I know it's not right,
To seek the light.
Most days it's hard to hold on;
I feel gone.

I love you, you are my family.
I ask you to stand by me.
I know you are mad.
Brother, I'm painfully sad.
Please forgive me;
Help me set my mind free.
I have no right to ask,
But my sanity won't last.

I strive to grow;
So none of my family see me below.
I know what I did was wrong;
I feel like I don't belong.
I hope you can forgive,
So I don't feel so guilty to live.

I love you.
I don't know what to do.

♥️ Your little sister