I played the fool...

Was I only dreaming?
Was I playing pretend?
Was I ooking for love?
Or did I just need a friend?

Was I really that stupid?
I bet I looked like a fool.
I acted so confident .
I thought it was cool.

Was everyone laughing,
When my back was turned?
I'm strong but I'm hurting ,
From this lesson I learned.

God grant me wisdom.
Was I really that dense?
What on Earth was I thinking ?
Il lacked common sense.

Looking back, I feel foolish .
Surely j must've known..
But once again I'm left facing,
This shit all alone.

Was I really so desperate?
Was it really so fake ?
Chalk that one up there,
With all my other mistakes.

I'm not really that stupid.
I'm too old for this game.
I bet he too is laughing,
I bet he feels no Shame.

I bet he finds it quite funny,
I bet he thrives on my pain  
But karma's a bitch,
And she will drive you insane.

The heart is deceitful,
It says in the word.  
And we reap what we sow. .
Or that's what I heard.