Alright Father God

Alright Father God,
    I'm here and I'm mad !
I'm not sure if you hear me,
But I need your help bad .
     No one here really knows me,
On both the inside and out.  
They just don't have a clue ,
What I'm really about.  
     I mean , I'm a pretender,
And  I talk a good talk ,
But I'm getting so tired,
Of walking the walk.
     I  put on an image,
And it's not even that good.
But I've been trying so hard
And I'd change if I could.
     But I just don't have it in me,
I'm just so bitter and week.  
I need major help lord,
It's strength that I seek,
     And I've came to you time after time thru the years.
 Begging forgiveness , thru laughter and tears.
Surely your tired of this same old worn out speech.
I'm begging for something that seems so out of reach.  
And millions of people , in worse shape then me...
Have over come hurdles between what's meant to be.  
And still go on to succeed and find peace from within..
And most all had to start from a life full of sin..
So alright Father God, im here and I'm sad .
I hope you'll forgive me for being so mad.
I hope you will guide me and show me the way,
and all of these things ,
In Christ's name I pray.